you knitted me together in my mother's womb. Psalm 139:13
One of the most beautiful ideas in the world to me is that God knew me before I was born. He knitted me together, He knew the number of my days, and the number of strands of hair on my head. It’s the same for my children. We were so blessed to get to see this with Elijah. To watch over 40 weeks as God knitted him and then he was delivered to us and we continue to watch him grow. I think I can speak for Timmy and I both when I say that this experience changed us as people…altered the way we view the world around us and our God.
And here we are doing it again….undeservingly blessed. But this pregnancy is having some complications. When I went in for my first OB appt and sonogram (at 8 weeks) the Dr. mentioned an area of blood in my uterus that was the cause of some slight spotting. It was said as if to be no big deal (or that is the way I interpreted it). Over this past weekend I awoke to a large amount of blood loss (what we thought was a miscarriage). We then went to the Weatherford Hospital and were told that the baby was okay and the cause of bleeding was probably a SUBCHORIONIC HEMORRHAGE. We didn’t really get a lot of answers but I didn’t ask many questions once I knew my baby was okay. I went in to my regular OB doctor yesterday. I still don’t have many answers. Moms you probably know what it’s like…you can never think of all the questions you need to ask during the 15 minute doctor’s visit. We were able to see the baby on the sonogram and he/she is still doing very well…growing fine and moving all over…another Elijah?! We were also able to see the subchorionic hemorrhage. If I understand it correctly it is blood that collects in between the uterine wall and the chorionic membrane (which is the final layer of the membrane protecting the baby). This situation does pose a threat to the baby but right now it’s not…it has the potential to create more complications. If it gets too large it could cause the placenta to separate from the uterine wall causing miscarriage early on or preterm birth later. In my case the bleed is connected along one edge of the placenta but is not disrupting placental flow to the baby. My doctor is very optimistic but cautious. So that is what I am. When I was pregnant with Elijah I had just completed my OB semester of nursing school and I spent a lot of time worrying about the could-be complications but never faced any. My situation now is not the worst of the could-bes but it is real to us and a somewhat scary situation. I am still trying to process. Not much can be done…but wait and see how it progresses or dissolves. I am “taking it easy.”
I was torn to write this post. I like to be more private but the truth is I covet the prayers of each person that might read this. And I thank you in advance.
For almost 15 weeks God has been creating BABYDOS. He KNOWS him/her, LOVES him/her, has NOT FORGOTTEN him/her, and still has His perfect HAND ON him/her. I am confident of this.